January 27, 2019

2 hours left

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

My examination result will be announced at 5 p.m. today, and it is less than 2 hours left.
This will be my third examination result in my undergrad life, but I still feel the same worry and fear, all over again. Plus, the subjects in the semester are tougher (as it should be).
Semalam pun ada rumours pasal AIA result. SEMOGA BETUL ITU HANYA RUMOURS!

Actually, I don't really favour this kind of feeling; janji tak repeat. Because deep down, I know, it's all my fault. I did not study hard enough. I am actually hoping to achieve more than that, but I'm scared that I'm going to be broken into pieces when the result is not going to be as what I expected. Hence, the low expectation.

Tapi apapun, we tried, we prayed, we did our best on those days. Now let's just pray that we will accept whatever our result is. My negative thoughts is my constant battle. I always question myself why can't I achieve higher marks, kenapa dah study all out pun result lebih sikit je dari separuh. I cried after some of my quizzes for the past semesters. Bunyinya macam tak bersyukur kan but idk.

Tapi, eventually I learn to let go. Apa yang dah jadi tak boleh nak fix dah. Kalau dah struggle gegila pun tapi kalau bukan itu rezeki kita, terima dengan hati yang lapang. Mesti ada hikmah. Semoga kita sentiasa beringat yang Allah's plan is better than ours. Semoga kita selalu beringat yang rezeki tu ada. Semoga kita sentiasa beringat apa yang Allah bagi, itu yang terbaik untuk kita.  

From Dr. Z's lecture.
All the best everyone! <3

January 14, 2019

Degree Life - First Year as A Pharmacy Student in IIUM (Semester II)

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

Sebelum masuk year 2 (after two seasons of procrastination) and can barely remember what happened in semester 2, I decided to write this entry. As we know, life gets tougher when you are one step ahead. New challenges, new problems, new responsibilities and new experiences. The most challenging part is of course, the timetable and workloads. In this semester, IIUM introduced new subjects that should be taken by the students of batch 171 onwards, which are Hubungan Etnik & TITAS. I do know that students from other universities are taking these subjects as well but IIUM already got UNGS (not 1 but 3) and TITAS is kinda overlapped with UNGS. Long story short, we took 10 subjects in this semester. Ye, tahu macam SPM pulak bebanyak subject tapi apakan daya~

First of all, the subject review.

1. Organic Chemistry
With 4 credit hours, this subject is labelled as one of the killer subjects by some of the KOP students. Personally, this subject is kinda interesting because you are able to know what is actually happening when a reaction takes place, and stereochemistry is my favourite chapter! But, when there are too many things (structure, reaction, reactant, catalyst, condition) to remember and you start to mix everything up, time tu memang mental breakdown. Tapi Dr. Q is the best, he is really really really a passionate and patient (sometimes funny), always make sure that you understand well, although he needs to repeat what's he teaching multiple times. When we told him that there are so many reaction mechanisms to remember, he did something that really, really helps us.

Me trying to visualise my stereochemistry knowledge lulz
CAM dia are 2 quizzes, lab reports and VIVA. If there is anybody going to ask me about my quiz marks, I can only laugh LOL. Takla teruk sangat tapi takla boleh dibanggakan hahaha. Teringat haritu time briefing before we start our lab session, Dr drew a chemical structure and asked us what was that structure. I answered it correctly (the structure was salicylic acid), and then Dr asked me what is my marks for Quiz 1. Of course I didn't tell my marks because it was not something to be proud of! Reaching the end of the semester, the topics were getting easier (kot). Insya-Allah, everything will be alright if you put a lot of effort. Don't get carried away by your marks if you didn't score well in the quizzes. Okay, you can cry but then try to be better. VIVA tu buat bebetul nanti boleh score full mark ehe.

After our lass class of the sem. I totally forgot that we have class that evening sebab pagi tu presentation Pharmaco so macam okay I'm done for this semester. Lepas tu time tengahari PIC remind kat WhatsApp pasal class hahahaha nasib dia remind kalau tak selamat dah...
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2. Medical Biochemistry
Another killer subjects. Yes, that is the only definition for this subject :') Of course it is interesting but when it comes to the memorising the facts, fuhhhh. Thousands of process and enzymes and scientific names. CAM: online quiz, pen & paper quiz, lab and peer assessment kot nama dia where we were divided into groups and each of us was assigned with two topics and we need to study the topics and then teach our groupmates. But, I am not sure if it is going to be the same for the upcoming batches.

My bad experience with this subject: I woke up late on the final exam day. Exam starts at 9 and of course we should be at the venue earlier than that but I woke up at 8 something, tu pun nasib baik ayah call, tulah tidur lagi lepas subuh! Tapi alhamdulillah sempat je mandi, siap and sampai EH.

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3. Fundamentals of Pharmacology
Another very interesting subject, yet killing. I love Pharmacology than Biochemistry. The lecturers will expect you to understand what they were teaching, not just merely memorising the lecture notes. Memang nampak macam susah but when you can see what you are actually learning and are able to correlate everything, then it should be fine. The labs were quite challenging. Ada satu exam tu ada online quiz lepas experiment :) CAM: lab, assignment, quizzes. For final exam, buat lah past year questions, biiznillah it helps :)

My Pharmaco groupmates #KitaOkay sebab kena kawkaw time present assignment hahahaha
Books:

The seniors said that we are going to use this book until our 4th year, but I am very sure that this book is not sufficient for the Pharmacokinetics and Pharmacodynamics lectures (which is about 50% of the subject), so I suggest that you guys get Rang & Dale's too. It is available at the library and the PDF version of the book is also available on the Internet.

4. Pharmaceutical Microbiology
I loveeeee this subject because lab reports & coursework dia individual! Hahahaha oh and then subject ni antara yang habis syllabus awal. As the name suggests, of course we are going to learn and memorise about the microorganisms, e.g. bacteria, viruses, fungi etc. What organism causes what diseases, the life cycle etc. Best! Walaupun coursework dia banyak effort la jugak untuk siapkan but alhamdulillah, it is one of my work that I can be proud of! [not sure if Dr. I thinks so because he is a perfectionist tho :')] Final exam pun takde la susah nak mampus, memang alhamdulillah time kitorang memang soalan direct so kalau study insyaAllah boleh je jawab gittew.
Update January '19: I got full mark for the coursework, alhamdulillah!!!!! Tak sia-sia all the hard work :')



I cultured E. coli heheheheh

That moment when I am finally done with the coursework. I put so much effort on this assignment and Alhamdulillah, I am very satisfied with the outcome ;)
Books:
Buku ni ada banyak je dekat Students Lounge tu.

Both of Tortora & Pommerville punya buku ni pun available dekat library. Yang previous edition pun ada jugak.
5. Pharmaceutical Analysis 1
This subject is about concepts (such as error, dilution, pH & pKa), instrumentation and calculation. I still can remember the final exam which was our last paper before the semester break; the extra-intense moment (just like Organic Chem paper), nobody went out of the exam hall before time's up. I asked for extra papers twice, which I never did before. Even when the students started to line up to submit their papers, I was still writing my answers. Alhamdulillah, it was worth it! This subject has quite a number of lab sessions, and the majority of the CAM marks is about the lab. We have Viva during every lab session as well. So make sure you are well prepared, know the concept and understand what are you going to do on that particular day.

Me and Dr. Zalikha after the last paper <3
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6. Bahasa Melayu Kerjaya
With 2 credit hours but 4 hours of class per week, it was kinda tiring. The CAM was 70% and not all sections will have the same tasks for the assessment. Class was usually held on 5-7, sometimes earlier if we were done with the lab session. No hard feeling but I cannot see the actual reason on why we are required to take this subject T_T Most of the lesson was learnt during high school, so ummm I think we'll be fine. 
P/S: an A+ during SPM doesn't guarantee an A for this subject :')

7. Usrah Budi
I know this subject should be a good platform tapi tak boleh terima betul bila sister tu cakap yang diorang pun tak diberitahu apa structure for this subject. Pantang betul benda yang main asal buat je tapi takde outline takde tujuan. So diorang buat ikut diorang je la asalkan cukup contact hour lulz. 

8. Leadership
If I am not mistaken this is a co-curriculum subject. Best jugak sebab relaxing, tapi different lecturers different approach and way of teaching. Macam kitorang awal-awal Madam ajar and few weeks later dah start presentation. Best sebab banyak presentation so sambil dengar orang present sambil tu boleh buat kerja yang tak habis-habis lol. Ada kena buat project CSR jugak. 

9. UNGS - Ethic and Fiqh of Contemporary Issues 
This UNGS is better than last semester's. Because it is a discussion on the current and daily issues so you can actually relate everything you learned with your daily life.

10. Hubungan Etnik

As mentioned, this subject is introduced in this semester so UIA being UIA, it was chaotic. We didn't know who's going to teach us until few weeks of the semester and the lecturers don't even know what to teach because there is no course outline provided, and the confusion about the final exam. Annoying, period. If you love history you may enjoy this class. I'm not hating this subject but if it was well planned and prepared then it should be fine.

Btw, I am pretty sure that the course structure for the upcoming batches has been restructured. They have Leadership & Ethic and Fiqh of Contemporary Issues UNGS in the first semester. Plus, rasanya macam ada subject year 2 pun nak tukar pergi year 1 semester 2 but I have no confirmation on that.

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Okay done with the subjects. Now, I'm going to write about everything else other than academic matters xD. First of all, Pharmily Day! Every year, the first year students will organise this event.  This time we choose Marvel as our theme. Basically, we need to do everything as best as we can to make sure the event running smoothly. Before the event, it was kind of nerve-wracking. Approval tak dapat-dapat padahal dah masuk February, tarikh kena tukar lepas hantar invitation sebab ada department programme, budget dapat half je dari previous years, and since we decided to have Taman Gelora as our venue (the previous batches buat dekat sportcomm, ada satu kot yang buat dekat Taman apentah depan UIA tu), lagi banyak benda kena settle. Transportation, deal dengan MPK. But alhamdulillah, everything went well. Of course there were flaws but we received good feedback ;)

I am in Team Captain America ^^

The mainboards

The characters for the opening gimmick.
Yes, Flash is from DC not Marvel tapi costume character
Marvel lain tak jumpa hahahahaha

My Rx16.

We had photobooth and face painting as well ;)

We also held a Teachers Day Celebration for our lecturers <3. It was a day before Ramadan. Dr. M actually bought us pizza because she said that it is a tradition to treat the students before Ramadan (if I heard it correctly) and we decided to celebrate everyone as well. Pagi tu la baru pergi jumpa lecturers jemput diorang datang class, but of course not everyone is able to come with the last minute notice tapi it's okay.

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Sebab the picture before this I yang snap & I don't remember siapa yang cakap tapi macam "eh sister tak masuk gambar ke?" so selfie it is xD
IPhA organised a programme called "Love for Lecturers" for the Teachers Day. The students were divided into groups and each group will give a card to the assigned lecturer. Kalau rajin bolehlah tambah hadiah sendiri.

Cakes yang setiap batch bagi to an assigned department. Time ni ada Dr. Eid dengan Brother Syed je dalam office Pharm Prac tu yang gambar nampak macam tak meriah hahahhaha.
Ohhhh, we had IPhA induction on February. Due to budget constraint kitorang buat induction kan dalam UIA je kahkahkah tapi petang tu decide nak pergi pantai and buat BBQ.




Ohhhhhh another one. I forgot that I korbankan cuti sem became the sub-committee for National Pharmacy Sport Carnival (NPSC). Jadi linesman untuk badminton je pun tapi tak senanggggg. Ada one time tu, game brothers tau and the player from that one uni langgar I yang tak bersalah ni haahhahha energy dia banyak sangat kot. Then, I mengelak la lepas tu time tu pulak la shuttle cock nak keluar dekat another side of the court kan, and the ref pandang I nak tau out ke tak. I literally kena rempuh time shuttle cock tu jatuh mana la tengok shuttle cock tu hahahah nasib ada students yang memang duduk area line belah sana tu.



Okay dah habis big events. Now time for random pictures hehehehe.
Niza and Ilah visited me at KOP and gave me Dofi <3


I ada paparazzi uolls LOL

Iman a.k.a Ummu Hurairah at Nasi Lemak Shahputra

Time ni I don't go home during the mid-semester break sebab lepas je cuti ada 3 ke 4 quiz ntah minggu tu, tapi dalam gambar tu Iman, dia balik rumah tapi balik sini awal hehehe

Some lab selfies xD




Time ni ada firedrill hahahaha esok tu dah lah ada quiz Organic Chem. 
When your class ends at 7 pm in 4 out of 5 days. Tu pun kekadang lebih, pernah balik dah gelap :')
My friend's opinion on Biochem kahkahkah

Iftar at Madam Zihan's place after our last paper.


I joined baking class dekat Masjid SHAS hahahaha. Ok la tu bayar RM10 je. Tapi I remembered I didn't sleep the night before, buat apentah. Lepas Subuh je tidur kejap tak sampai sejam pastu bila sampai sini sebelum start sambung tidur lagi.

Okay, that's all for semester 2. The subjects probably nampak susah tapi there's one thing that is so powerful that we often forgot to actually utilise it; mindset. Bila kita asyik set benda tu susah, automatically kita macam tertutup to accept the knowledge walaupun sebenarnya that topic senang je, I know because I did. Memang ada benda yang memang susah tapi kalau we try our best to understand, kita dah usaha and doa, insya-Allah semua dipermudahkan. All the best everyone!

January 4, 2019

It's 2019.

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

I think it is not too late to wish everyone a happy new year! May this new chapter be a very good and meaningful one. Well, I am currently in my final exam period. My new year eve was basically me and my PNS lecture notes xD I am taking 8 core subjects for this semester and 2 university-required subjects. For finals, I have 10 papers including OSCE and OSPE.

I have 3 more papers next week. I really, really hope I don't mess up with these 3 papers because I only have a one-day gap for the next paper. Pray for me!

Anyway, my new year resolution is to blog weekly. Semoga Athirah berjaya. Actually, I planned to write my first 2019 post yesterday, after my PNS paper but guess who slept after lunch all the way until 3 pm lulz #SleepyheadSince2010. Then, I had dinner with my TaWe-mates. Will write about that in another post. I am so happy because finally I have a proper interaction with human hahahaha. Exam period ni memang tak ada social life langsung. I think I only speak less than 200 words per day kot? Tu pun sebab interact dengan makcik cafe / orang kiosk kahkahkah. Ye la because almost everyday I will go to KOP to study at Student's Lounge because it is a conducive place for me. Got aircond, big tables, can eat and drink, and nak solat dekat surau KOP ni pun selesa. Dekat library tak boleh minum nescafe and the mussola is smol and not comfortable for me. Dengan CFS students yang bising tu lagi, pft. 

I think that's all for the first post of 2019, kinda hambar isn't it? Hahahhaha it's been a long time since my last post so my writing mood isn't fully activated, gittew kan alasan LOL. Alright, bye! If you read this, doakan Athirah and my Rx16 members can excel in this semester because undeniably, it is really tough. I wish all of you the best too! 

Say hi to Marsya, (again).

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