March 18, 2018

Just wanna let it out

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

This post might give a really negative vibe so ummm first of all sorry.

Well, there are too many things happened during these past few weeks. It bugs me emotionally, mentally and also physically. Really, I'm exhausted. But I know I chose this path. I should keep going. 

But then, there are always be something on my way. Testing. Too many misunderstandings, it hurts. Sumpah, sakit sangat bila kena macam tu. And orang lain membabi buta percaya without asking what really happened. Your words, some of them are fitnah, brother. I'm sorry but it was hard for me to forgive you for what you have done, if you ever will say sorry after all. I was thinking to make an explanation of what was really happened, but I know where will this end up to. So, if you really want to know what happened and bukannya jadi lembu dicucuk hidung ikut and percaya je apa orang cakap membabi buta, do ask me. I am okay to explain, really. Remember bro, God is great. 

Another thing that really pissed me off is commitment. Up to this extent, aku dah macam lantak korang lah tak nak buat. Korang yang rugi because that work/task should be something that you'll learn from. But, where's the common sense and also sense of urgency? You agree to be in that position, then do your work la? Bila ada benda yang tertangguh or tak boleh proceed, let others know so we can find the solution together. Tau tak sakit dia macam mana when you replied, "entah haritu dia tak bluetick pun" and you don't even have any effort to fix the problem or at least let me know? Lepas tu kerja pun macam tu lah, tak siap. The position you are holding is for one year tahu?Amanah tu bukan satu benda kecik, tu je nak cakap.

Dengan group assignment mintak nama and matrics number pun tak reply sumpah tak boleh brain. Why la there are ignorant people on this world? 

I just hope that this situation will be fixed someday. 

yang sedang sakit.

February 10, 2018

An Open Letter to Everyone.

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

I’m sorry everyone.

To my family, I’m sorry if I didn’t really catch up with you guys. I’m sorry if I rarely call. But you are always in my prayers.

To my friends and classmates, sorry if I did anything wrong. Sorry if I sound fussy or bossy. I just want everything to be clear and perfect. I just want everyone to have the sense of urgency and also know the meaning of responsibility. I'm not saying that everyone does not have those, only some of us. I’m not that good, do tell me when I did something wrong, I accept comments. Oh, sorry if I look unapproachable. It’s only my face, I’m okay if you want to ask me anything, really.

To that one girl, I know we are not that close anymore. Sorry that I gave up on our friendship. I’m sorry because I didn’t really paksa you to tell me whats wrong when you won’t tell me anything and we end up like this, semua simpan dalam hati je.

To my highschool bestfriends, sorry we didn’t really catch up nowadays. I know we can see the chemistry is fading but I’m happy that you guys are happy. Congratulations for your achievements! I’m so proud of you guys!

To me myself, sorry that you have nothing to be proud of.  

To everyone, sorry if I misbehaved. I did try to be better, everyday. Please pray for me. Do leave any comments here: 

January 6, 2018

Final exam and gifted.

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

Well it's 2018 already and my last post was in October 2017 hehe. Was thinking to blog at least once a week but then hm no consistency I think. Being a degree student is not a joke man. Yaaaaa I know baru first year and first sem but this is my phase okay? I know it will get harder by times and I will see today’s challenge and hardship as only a small matter but hey, human grows?

Sebenarnya tengah buat soalan MCQ for physiology OMG tomorrow is the day doh can’t believe the day is really coming. Ya that sounds dramatic but that’s one thing about me. I get pretty nervous and in unbelievable phase when the real important days are really coming, i.e. final exam days, Along’s wedding day, my Uni registration day and the list goes on. Tapi Alhamdulillah everything went well je nobody is hospitalised sebab terkejut the day is really coming lol.

Actually this post only to convey a message. It have been lingering in my mind since umm idk 2013? Ya, you know in any class there will be that one kid (or more) that looks like he/she did nothing extra or even nothing at all but then bila result keluar fuh nama mereka la teratas. And other students will be saying “gifted bolehlah”, as in they did nothing but they achieve everything. I personally think that if you are not with them 24/7, you do not really see what they are doing outside of the class, you should not label them as gifted.

Because some of em really works hard, it just us that did not see their effort. Some of them burnt the midnight oil, belum cerita hubungan dia dengan Tuhan macam mana, they really pay attention in class while some of us kalau dah tak faham tu terus give up (cakap dengan cermin).  Kalau kita memang 24/7 berkepit dengan orang tu and tahu dia memang tak belajar and result still excellent boleh la kot nak kata dia gifted. But when people works really hard to achieve something but then labelled as ‘that person who did nothing but achieve everything’ is kinda hurting, yes? These people memang bukan jenis nak bagitahu orang how’s their effort pun, some of them sacrifise a lot, so we should not disregards their effort kan? Tapi cuba tanya apa dia buat sampai dia boleh score alright?

Okay tu je nak cakap doakan I can answer my paper well tomorrow, adios! 
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